Last week I joined experience project. Little did i realize how it would be instrumental in helping me to begin the journey of getting past what i have endured the past one and a half years and begin to find myself again. What I do know, is that through reading many questions & answering ones that I felt my input could help, I have had some members privately message me with their dilemmas & ask for my input . While I am no expert by any means ( and i make that clear right off the bat), I take time to ponder their question and than answer with nothing short of sincerity and respect. All I have is my years of life lessons and the wisdom that I think I have gained through them,but I feel that I do have something to offer. If anyone were to ask me which 'celebrity' out there do I most relate to and/or see myself being like...i would have to say that I think of myself as the female version of Dr.Phil. haha...even though my hair has gotten thinner over the years, that is not the resemblance that I am talking about. I just 'get' how he thinks and know what he means and can even say what he is going to say b4 he says it. I can very much relate to the way he looks at the world and the people in it. A lot of the things he says & thoughts he shares.....are the same things I think & believe. I don't have all those years of education & experience behind me in the same way that he does, but I have always had this 'knack' of understanding this world we live in, what ppl are like and what makes them tick, and just how things should be said & done since i was a very little girl. I have always felt 'wise beyond my years'. i am also very sensitive and intuitive where people are concerned & even over the internet, when I meet ppl (especially on the internet,b/c I don't see the person I am talking to) my other senses are more sharper....and my sensitivity and intuitiveness are heightened. I don't know if what i said has actually helped them deal with their individual dilemmas, but i seemed (at the least) to help them to be able to step back, look at their situation more ob
I can't remember how i found this site....but I am really beginning to like it here. How can you not like it when the first thing you see when you sign up is 'Welcome Home'.? It is the first site i have been to where not only do I feel like i can truly express myself...but I also feel like I can take what i have learned throughout my life and use it to help others here. I really feel like I have a lot to offer and finding a place where I feel like I can share that part of myself....is helping me to start feel more like myself. I think I will stay awhile.
Well, as a 47 year old woman, I never thought I would have ever considered therapy. My life has never been an easy one, nor has it been the fairytale story with the 'happily ever after' ending....But i have always considered myself a very strong person. The past year and a half has seriously chipped away at my 'strong woman' armor and I am left feeling weak,sad and vulnerable. All the things I have done to get through the 'tough times', just doesn't seem to be working for me anymore. 2011 was a horrible year & 2012 was simply devastating. While I want nothing more than for 2013 to be the year that it all changes for the better, I'm not so sure that will be the case. Knowing what I know and knowing what I am about to face keeps me grounded in reality and I am no longer living this fantasy belief that as long as I trust and believe....things will just get better. I used to be a positive person and believe that I was also a good person. But, i am beginning to believe I must have done something truly horrible in my last life or that I was a really bad person to deserve what I have gone through in this life. I am not one to always ask 'why me?',but used to be the 'why not me'? kind of thinker..now I find myself feeling like nothing less than the victim and always wonder what I did to deserve what has happened to me and around me. I feel like I am in a rut that I just can't pull myself out of. Nothing I know to do works anymore. Nothing I have tried seems to help. I have noone that I can share what I am thinking,feeling and experiencing with. I feel just as alone now as I did the day I came into this world. While I am used to it and for the most part...am content with it, I find that carrying the weight of such burdens is something that I need to get out of me,off my shoulders and free from my spirit. I guess that is why I am actually going to go for counselling. I truly hope it helps. I'm tired of this life I have been living and i miss being me and I want to get back to being the strong independant person I have always been. Or maybe i am mistaking always being in 'survival' mode since I was just a tot for being strong and independant. Either way....I have come to realize I can't do this on my own anymore. But, until I start therapy...I have heard that putting your feelings,thoughts,fears and opinions down in writing can be very therapeutic....so here goes....
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